For all those lost, there is so much to be found.
Where heart breaks, light mends.
With a heavy heart, I learn true surrender.
It is with you, that I’ve found.
The like occurs, yet roads come tightly together.
You’re there, with so many other.
The world opens up, above a wide open air.
It’s there I find, a peace at last.
One that I can, breath into with life.
A believer of, something great.
A force that, joins together in balance.
Trusting the pulls, that ache, release & create.
Destiny, it’s a funny thing.
Drawing forth, all that’s to be done.
A hearts' knowing, forever unforgotten.
Builds it’s dream, from the place in between.
I’m tired of how much energy you drain from me.
I’m so sick of the way you come out in times I need you least.
I’m tired of the shit stories you tell me, that I'm wrong or not enough.
I’m tired of your negativity that feeds fear within my mind & body.
I’m tired of the way you make my heart race.
I am tired of the tightness I feel in my shoulders when you show up.
I’ve had enough of the tensions, doubts, worries that I’ve done something wrong.
You’re like a shadow that takes all my light away.
I am currently in the middle of my second candida cleanse.
What does that mean?
I only eat meat, vegetables and very little low sugar fruits for two weeks.
Cutting out grains, dairy & sugar which feed yeast/candida in my body.
I did a longer one 3 years ago I believe & changed my diet.
My oldest son is doing it too, his longer cleanse was 4 years ago.
These drastically changed our mental health, along with avoiding certain foods.
What we learned from clearing out refined/cane sugars & dairy was,
that our brains work a whole lot better without them.
Each of us is unique in what we need for our mind & body.
When we removed things long enough for the gut to heal
and we reintroduce it, we became clear what really happens to our bodies.
I’ve experienced worry/anxiety for a lot of my life.
I’ve always had trouble within my body with candida since I was 10 years old.
I just didn’t know it or have the sense to tell my parents or look deeper into it.
I continued until mid 20’s when I got to my second bad burn out & attempted to quit sugar. Dates became my best friend after dinner.
At that time I also learned through an old relationship how empathic I was.
That I could take on energy that wasn’t mine and experience it like it was my own.
So I share my journey with candida & anxiety as these two for me have been linked.
After getting strep throat real bad & taking antibiotics, I've begun this cleanse.
For the first week it’s pretty foggy, anxious, scattered, irritable & many subtle sensations.
My son got strep throat twice, two rounds of antibiotics & here we are day four on our cleanse!
This is what I know about you today.
You tempt me into believing you, so I can get into the moment and remember who I am.
You trick me into second guessing myself, so I feel how uncomfortable that is in my body.
You lie to me in hopes that I will give in and give up, but I keep deciding not to listen.
You remind me that I am a living organism, changing and shifting every day.
You teach me that my needs really matter & when I stop listening you get stronger.
You help me trust over time, with support, healthy practice & courage my inner voice gets stronger than yours.
You are here for me to experience my fullest potential, to know many bottoms means I can reach higher.
You have helped me develop subtle awareness within my body, that guides my decisions & thoughts.
You help me remember feeling like a victim keeps me small & empathy and self care is my medicine.
So thank you anxiety and screw you candida.
I’ve got this shit and I’m well on my way to clearing you out!
I am thankful to know today what I didn’t know so long ago.
Being a sensitive empath has it’s ups and downs, yet the more I learn to listen to my body
the more gifts that keep growing deep within me.
I love to share them with the world and today, I'm enjoying sharing them with myself too.
I trust that my experience will reach you in what ever way it’s meant to.
You are so full of potential.
All that’s done unto you, is actually for you.
I believe in your goodness.
I trust in your path.
May you get to know your insides & don't forget to laugh!
Magnitudes of love
Woman, Wife, Mother and Intuitive. Consciously evolving with all of nature and humanity.